Because of the influential males in my life whom I aspire to be like, inadvertently the male gaze that they look through became a lens that I then began to view myself through as well, deciphering what was attractive and what was right. It is my father’s rebellious and skateboarder demeanor that I have followed, using this behavior and culture as a way to define who I am. On the other hand, it has been my mother who has tried to make me into the better version of herself, my sisters examples of what a woman should be, wear, and say, ultimately the girl that I am not but whom I feel like I should be. I’m tired of being judged based on these standards set onto me as a woman and also judging myself based on them. I am unable to deal with my aggravations in an open and unfiltered manner, with this sexual objectification and feminine identity, so I use my artwork to confront and undermine these expectations set onto me. I present this love/hate relationship through illustration, videography, and photography, with a female figure that resembles myself as my main subject. I explore topics of dominance, humiliation, the abject, indulgence, violence, and my own frustrations, confronting the male gaze that I’ve grown up with by empowering the object, myself. I have a relentless need to process my experiences and inner feelings for the public eye, a means to create a disruption in their lives like how these issues disrupt my own.